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| | Subject: | Love Letters | | Time: | 11:46 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/contemplative.gif) contemplative |
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I find myself very odd. I am not a "normal" woman, as the common word is used. I find myself on my own, because I have no one to guide me on the path I have chosen. These days the life I have for myself is sort of....wrong. Not only have I given myself to a man much older than me, I have given up much hope of "advancement in society" for quite some time. Though, I have things that many other women do NOT have. I have, in my possesion, perhaps the greatest of treasures. I have a large quantity of letters. These days, everything is e-mail and test message. How many women have more than one letter, from the one they love. I mean, how many even have an actual "gone through the post" letter? Not many these days. The contents of these letters I have vary from one to another, but they all say the same thing to me: LOVE. True, it was from necessity the letters were written. There is no other way to communicate in the situation we were in. The heart of the matter is, however, I have a hard copy of courtship and love on paper. Not saved on some hard drive somewhere waiting to be erased, or destroyed by a virus. I have proof I can hold in my hand, that I loved once. That I loved so true, and so strong, and without remorse.
Though, this proof matters little. What matters is that the love has endured. That I still feel for the man I met more than 4 years ago. He is sacred to me. This man, who no one else seems to know, captivates me. He holds me in the palm of his hand, and yet, we are equal. We share all burdens together, and enjoy happiness as one. We each play our own part. Though, not alike in some things, very alike in character.
Letters. Something to show after all else is dust. Something to pass on. A beautiful reminder of a simpler time.
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| I figured, just for fun, let us look at a typical day in my life. Just for kicks people.
I wake up normally between 9:30-11AM. Make coffee, have a smoke, drink some coffee, smoke some more... Check my e-mail. Usually there's nothing there except junk (apparently I need Free Viagra), and possibly something from work, or my mommy. Then it is off to what I consider my "news source": www.boingboing.net I check things out for a while there, then depending on the day I go through the list of webcomics I read(which is becoming harder to do because the list is getting HUGE). Here are just a few: http://www.qwantz.com/archive/list.html http://www.lfgcomic.com/ http://www.octopuspie.com/ http://hijinksensue.com/ ...and the list goes on....for a while....
Depending on the time I wake up, it is either now time to A) Log in for work or B) Play some World of Warcraft or if I am not in the mood for WoW C) research something totally random online to broaden my knowledge of useless/totally random! information(yes it it must have an "!" after it...exciting stuff). Lets say it is choice A! I work from home, so pretty much, I start up a VPN, a couple other programs, and that's that. Kind of nice that I get to sit in my PJ's and earn a paycheck at the same time. I do this Mon-Fri until my training is over. Then I will have Wed. & Thur. off every week. Right now work lasts from 12-6:30PM. Once done with that, I will usually make dinner, then move on to choices B, C or POSSIBLY EVEN D) Read from a book with ACTUAL pages! Right now I am reading 3 different books. The Fifth Elephant By Terry Pratchett (which I will finish today, and move onto another Discworld book), Academ's Fury by Jim Butcher (the second book in his more "traditional" fantasy series), and The Lord of the Rings- The Return of the King (It is far beyond the time that I finished this reading of The Bible greatest piece of literature every written, GPLEW for short).
Then I will monkey around online, perhaps watch a movie or some instant TV on Netflix (Not having cable kind of limits my options). This is of course a rough sketch. Usually somewhere in all that great boring pile of things, I have to walk to the store for something, be it before or after work. Usually after....no one fucks with Coffee Time. Which is basically the Central Time zone, on...caffine. So...that is pretty much it....kind of....boring, huh?
EDIT: This was going to be a lot wittier, and humorous, but it NOT being a "typical day" and getting up at 8am, I am too tired to achieve this. It was more of a "hey! look at my boring life, but at least I have a brain and a sense of humor...." didn't really work out.
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| | Current Music: | Muse | | Subject: | Hello | | Time: | 07:37 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/chipper.gif) chipper |
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| Well, it has been a while LJ! Yes, it is early, and I am bored. I have to work at 3 today, and I am still a little drunk from last night. Please, forgive my typos. I'm sure there will be some. I am finishing the rest of my drink from last night, because I figure....what the hell? Might as well put off the hangover for as long as I can, and I have a long while before work.
I am excited to say that Mommy is getting me the Twilight Boxed set for Christmas. She has 4 things that she gets for Christmas: Something to Wear, Something to Read, Something You Want, and Something You Need. Its nice. I don't think that there's a Redwall book coming my way this year though...that will be the first time in....a LONG time. YEARS in fact. Maybe I should ask her. I still LOVE the Redwall series.
ANYHOO....not a lot else going on...OH WAIT! YES THERE IS! I got offered a JOB! $10.00 an hour for working at home! I am excited. I just did my computer performance test and am waiting to hear back. I mean, this comp is pretty much brand new...so...there's no reason I shouldn't get the job. I am UBER excited. This means I won't have to walk to work...and Troy and I will be caught up on everything! Well, I can pay off my fines and get a new car, and all that jazz! EXCITED! I really hope it pans out. In fact the only reason I "got up" at 6:15 was beacuse I was like "Maybe I got an e-mail from them." I mean this would be the greatest thing to happen in FOREVER! It will be so nice! I'm pretty sure that I will get it....but I don't want to be too sure. That will just jinx everything. I am just happy that I heard something. I was starting to think that they were going to blow me off, and I would have to reapply in another month. Jeez, though! $10.00! That would be AWESOME! AWESOME!
Ummmm, I don't think I have anything else to say. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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At the moment, I am FREEZING! We ran out of fuel early this morning...but I have to go to work soon, so we'll be picking some up.
This: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/newstopics/howaboutthat/3328480/Otto-the-octopus-wrecks-havoc.html is why they scare me. All together too smart for their own good. Things that can figure that shit out, and have big brains, shouldn't be stored in such terrifying bodies! NOT CORRECT!
In other news, work is going ok. I put in an application for a second job. We'll have to see how that goes. They haven't called yet. :( I remain hopefull. (By the way, sorry if there are typos. I have gloves on.) Not too much else. I did end up getting WoW back on the computer after the Big Redo, but I haven't been playing much. Mostly reading, listening to music, and finding interesting downloads on the internet. Well...and working, cooking and cleaning...all those great things as well. I didn't do so well on my "not drinking" thing...well, I've only drank once since then, and it wasn't that much. As for smoking...I am gonna give it another go. Its just TOO expensive, and the price is going up all the time. Even since I started smoking these cheapos, they have gone from $3.00 a pack to $3.20 in about 4 months. Plus...I don't even really enjoy it anymore. All it does is keep me from killing people. Granted once I get through that stage I think I'll be fine. There's lots of other things I could spend that money on....Christmas presents, my wedding, bills....though maybe not in that order. If I took $3.20 everyday and put it in a jar, it would start to add up.
Anyway, I am cold. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I have begun listening to Muse. Where was I when these guys came around?! Seriously! Being stuck in my own little world kind of sucks. I need to be a little more proactive! How much more have I missed? Bands, gossip news, important details.... Things that may have changed me in a positive way? Then again, it could also have been for the negative, though I never see any chance to absorb knowledge as a negative. Perhaps I should break out of my shell a little. Get my shit together for one thing. It would be nice to have a car again. Oh, to be able to take off when I wish! To not have to walk in the bitter cold when I have to run to the store for even the smallest craving. Then again...maybe I don't really belong in this world, or life, or something. Maybe there is a place for me somewhere that hasn't been reveiled yet.
Ok, too philosophical. Anyway, Muse is a kick ass band. I likes them a lot. There is plenty of time to listen to them, and do lots of other things since I am not playing WoW anymore. [Waits for gasps of shock, and the odd heart attacks, from the crowd] I got a very bad virus on my computer a while ago, and it pretty much destroyed our whole network. There will be no WoW playing for a while. I am kind of happy about that....but why, oh why, Twisted Fate, could it not have happened in the SUMMER? The sun-shiny time of the year, when I can actually get out and DO things?
I am going to try to make a deal with Troy. I can't really elaborate on it until I've made the proposition. Just know it would mean a big change in our lives. =^___~= We'll have to see how it goes. I will keep you all informed, and let you know what it is the moment I have the answer. No matter what it is. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Muse | | Time: | 08:15 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/happy.gif) happy |
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| So out of curiosity I started reading the Twilight series. Yes, I know...its odd that I am reading a series while it is still popular. Not Liz fashion, I agree. My cousin Jenny, who started reading them before all the hoopla, told me they were wonderful. I love vampires, and I am a sucker for a love story (even if I won't admit it), so it seemed like a no-brainer. I read Twilight in one sitting, and have started on New Moon. They are **really** great books! I like what I have read so far. Plus, Twilight is pretty impressive for a debut novel. So, if you can ignore the fact that the movie just came out and the crazy fans (which I will probably become one), and read the books, I totally recommend them.
Also, I went and got my hair cut last night. I have BANGS again! Do you know how long its been since I had BANGS? 3 years. They aren't like BANGS of AMERICA, BANGS though. They are like....cool BANGS! I also dyed it dark auburn. I really like it. Anyhoo....that is about all I have to say. Same old same old. Working, reading, playing WoW, and trying to hang out with friends I don't have....mostly I hang out with the imaginary ones in my head. They are pretty cool. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I AM BEGGIN YOU LJ COMMUNITY!!! I am having a moment of SHAME! I can not rmember a song......one that has to do with houses, sand, and maybe.....fire? I can not find the lyrics to the song that I am thinking of, and it kills me.....I MUST KNOW! If you have any ideas of what my drunken thoughts are thinking....e-mail me.... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Ok....I wasn't gonna...but this "Writer's Block" question IS MY KINDA QUESTION!
...hmmm....what is my favourite....that is tough....I might have to say.........*Scooby Doo Flash-Back Screen*
It was Bigfoot that started it all...way back in the 2nd grade. That was when I checked out books from the school library about the great bi-pedal ape-man. Though, my taste soon branched off...Nessy, and aliens became some of my top reading material. I have to say...really, one of the great things about finding either Bigfoot or Nessy, vs. Chuppy would be that the discovery would slap the faces of so many "Intelligent Design" bastards, that I could cry with happiness! SO, Nessy and Bigfoot earn points for that....
Chupacabra though...just has that exotic flare...they're like a Jersey Devil....only...with tacos or something. Often times the videos of the animal claiming to be Chupacabras are SILLY! SILLY to the MAX! Chuppy should be like the old stories claim...not some dog with a severe case of mange! He's an upright dude with teeth, and loves the goats!
Nessy has been a love/hate relationship for a while. The Loch isn't SUPER huge, and while there are theories about her/him being able to go outside of the Loch are there, it's hard to believe that something so big could hide there. Of course...just because you can't find something that's very large doesn't mean it's not there. The mystery is wonderful. I mean....look at the Coelacanth, thought extinct for millions of years...ALIVE AND WELL! Whose to say a dino-like creature could not be there?????
Bigfoot, ah, sweet Bigfoot....mentioned in Native American legends, sighted by many different people, from many walks of life....in many different places. Could The Missing Link be hiding in our own back yards??? What a great thing it would be if someone really found one. (ASSHOLE GEORGIA JERKS!!!!)
Really...I can't pick a favourite....they are all awesome....and should be taken into consideration, even by skeptics. I am a skeptic. I mean...I won't say it's real one way or another until there is proof...belief though, is a personal thing. I believe Nessy and Bigfoot have a higher probability of existence than Chuppy, but I have a place for each of them in my heart. :D CRYPTOZOOLOGY FTW!!!
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| So I see they are doing "Unedited & Uncut" (!!!!!) One Piece now. <__< Yeah....right.
So things have been the same as usual...except Nick is living with us, and my hours got cut to like 12 a week after the whole fiasco with my illness. Jeff, one of my co-workers, is moving to Virginia on the 12th, so I will probably be getting back to a normal schedule. That will be great, because child support started stealing Troy's money again. Not that I am against people taking care of their kids, but they are pretty much robbing us, and I *will* go to the courthouse next time I am in Virginia, not to mention the child support place, and find out what can be done about this highway robbery. So, it's probably a good thing that Mom is sending us what she would be sending Dad for child support. If she wasn't, we might be on a fast sinking ship.
Also, I have to bring Shane, my dog, to the shelter. She chews everything, and barks all the time...which woulnd't be so bad, but Troy has gotten written up over her noise a few times...so she has to go. He can't lose his job....so she has to go. I don't think I will be getting any new pets anytime soon, because it seems like once I get them, something happens and I have to get rid of them. One way or another....so, if anyone knows anyone who wants to work with a stubborn lab type, let me know. She is for grabs, otherwise, she will be going to the Humane Society Shelter in a few days if not tomorrow. :(
In other news....not a lot going on.....same shit different day. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Death | | Time: | 09:34 pm |
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| | So, I have decided that my new "thang" is going to be collecting Death stuff. Like....The Grim Reaper....not like dead animals or bits of rotting people. <_< Can you believe the man doesn't have a fan site????!!!!!!!!!! Seriously. I don't know where this rekindled love of Death has come from. He's just sooooooo cool. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | U2 | | Subject: | Is that right? | | Time: | 10:57 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/annoyed.gif) annoyed |
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| Well, I think my computer is getting ready to kick the bucket. It didn't want to start up today...twice. Oh well. I got it back on now. unless it does one of it's mysterious shut-downs. Also, it appears that I am on "vacation." I was sick over the weekend with a demobilizing cold/horrible throat ache. Well, Yesterday when I called my boss said he wouldn't schedule me until I was feeling better, well I'm not like 100% I still have a stuffy nose and whatnot, but I sure as hell can function. So I called him just a few minutes ago...this is like 10 minutes after I've woken up...and for anyone who has seen me in the morning, you know that my voice is kinda scratchy anyway...comes with smoking, and he's like well you still sound bad, and I don't want to schedule you and then have you come not show up..... So....I guess that's that. Screw it. I enjoy some time off. Even though the paycheck is gonna suck ass. Alas there isn't a lot I can do about it. If I argue with him he'll just get upset. I don't really know what to do in this situation. Troy is gonna be pissed when I tell him. I am already pissed about it.
The next bit of news is that my WoW account went down today....so I can't even play. GRRRRRRRR! Unless Troy has enough money on his card to reactivate it...which I doubt. I am up shit creek without a paddle.
Other than that, I am pretty much going through th motions. Nothing too exciting, but not really boring either. Just....good....I mean besides this work thing. Things are just good, and that's alright with me. Even though I don't really leave the house, other than to fetch things we need, it's stil good. Hopefully it doesn't rain today. That number is getting a little old. I could use some sunshine...which it is shining at the moment! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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SO, some of you must be wonder what my WoW characters look like...well....like this:
This my newest character my level 21 Druid, Airessa. She kicks the butt...for those that don't play WoW, she's a Night Elf.
This is my Druid again...only 1/2 naked....in front of my dominatrix cage....yummy.... <__<
This is my level 40 Paladin, Aquessia. She just got into plate armor! Hurray for her! She's a Draenei.
This is my pally again, a full view. SHE HAS HOOVES! I love Draenei because they reminds me of Capricorn.
This is my HIGHEST Horde toon. She's a level 40 Warlock! My only Lock. Tanggore, as you see in the pic, is my minion(Breseis is my name...it's a mispelling of the name of the priestess in The Iliad: Briseis is the correct spelling).
Here is a full body of my PRETTY Bloof Elf Warlock, and my best minion....until I get my felgaurd, Tanggore! I <3 Tanggore!
HERE SHE IS! THE GODDESS! MY PRIEST! Zevi! My level 70 priest. Almost fully ep'd (Epic geared for the non-WoW players).
This is the closest that I have for a Full Body of Zevi. She is the "Apple of my eye! The Cream in my Coffee!"(Name that move NE1?)
Here is Zevi on her flying mount...it is not Epic, because I am poor. I will have to upload some of her on her Talbuk...because...that is beautiful, and I killed so many Ogres to get her reputation up for that Talbuk....it is my favourite mount....
So those are the WoW toons I play and love. Please leave comments...because I love them as well.
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| So, perhaps it is time to pst and entry? Since it's been so long?
Pretty much I have just been working, playing WoW, fishing, and trying to enjoy the summer, but the weather has been so fucked up that's been difficult. Work has been going well, and as it consumes some of my time and gets me out of the house, life hasn't been SO boring. Troy and I are trying to quit smoking, but it doesn't seem to be going well, as we are both still smoking rollies. I went like 8 hours the other day without....I think that's probably the record. I am not feeling to well, but I think that's mostly because I slept like crap last night, and I'm not looking forward to riding my bike to work in the rain...well, maybe I will update again later when I have more times....gotta get ready. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 08:07 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/tired.gif) tired |
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| Well here's a picture of my new puppy! Her name is Chein, and she's 1/2 Yellow Lab 1/2 German Shepard! WHEEEEEEE! She's also crazy!
Sorry the quality is kinda shitty. We used an old webcam and the lighting wasn't great. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | So, running the risk of jinxing everything, I will post the news anyway... <__<; It looks like we will be getting our own place here tomorrow or Tuesday. We won't be able to move in until the 13th, but, we can move our stuff in. I am pretty happy about that. I mean....I am really sick of being at Rick and Sara's. Too noisy, too stupid....I really don't want to go into the details, because it just pisses me off to think about it. Other than that, same old stuff. Troy started his new job a few weeks ago, and that seems to be going well. I need to find myself a job. It's gonna be kinda hard since we will be in Hoyt Lakes and there isn't a whole lot of places to work at, and I can't find anything now for working at home. Oh well....something will present itself, I am sure. Uuuuuummmmmmmm.....lets see....haven't been playing WoW, and that is nice. Gone fishing a couple of times. That was fun. For the most part, I am looking forward to getting back into the swing of things, and enjoying the summer. It should be good times. Getting the new place set up should be interesting. I wish we could get the stuff out of storage, because a lot of my "decorative" crap is in there....not to mention.....ACTION FIGURES! I just hope that all of this works out. I am sick of everything going down the shitter, and being all....R-tarded. I hope that things are all ok with you peeps in the land of everywhere else! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Do you like your neighbor?:
I don't really know the neighbors where we are staying...but, if you mean the people we are staying with...a monster-truck rally would be like a quiet day at the lake... <__< Whats one word that describes your last fight?:
Stupid-over stupid things.... What did your last text message say?:
I don't remember....I no longer have a cell phone. Probably something dumb..lol Do you carve pumpkins every year?:
No EVERY year....you shouldn't use absolutes.... O.o Color of your shirt?:
Navy Blue....at least my sweatshirt. Who's the person who you call the most?:
Probably my dad. How are you feeling right now?:
Bored...and frustrated. How many times have you moved?:
5-6. You forget after a while. Too frickin' many.... What is the last thing you touched that is not computer related?:
.....a coffee cup. What is your ring tone?:
I have no ringtone.... Do you have a favorite number?:
18...just because. Are your grades good?:
I don't have grades. Do you hate anyone/anything?:
I suppose... Have you ever gotten into a physical fight with a member of the opposite sex?:
Yeah How old will you be in 2 months?:
23 Do you think you'll be married by then?:
Yes. What did you do last night?:
Chilled out, or tried to, watched movies. Do people ever spell your name wrong?:
Yeah, they put an "s" instead of a 'z" and lets not even get started on the last name..... When was the last time you cried?:
A week or so ago. Do you know how to knit?:
I have no idea how to knit.... What are you doing right now besides this survey?:
1/2 watching Smallville, and trying to come up with an idea to make my day less "teh suck"? Do you wear any jewelry?:
Yeah, earrings, and a ring and sometimes even a necklace!!! What are your plans for tonight?:
I wish they involved booze of some sort, because getting plastered would help me ignore noise, and retardation...but I will probably end up playing WoW or D&D or watching episodes of BSG on SciFi.com. ....I would gladly do any of those things while plastered.....but once again...the lack of booze/money to buy it prevails. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | Well, people, it has been a while. I got my own computer again! Wheeeee! Things here have been wonderful...stressful at times, but wonderful. I am kinda bored right now. Troy is helping his friend with some work, so I am sitting here and figured maybe posting an entry was more productive than playing my 1,000th solitaire game. <___< Anyway..........yeah not too much going on. Just chillaxing and listening to some music. ...............................BORED! Just wanted to let everyone know that I am alive...sort of, and things are going well. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Well, its been a while, everyone! I hope all is well with you peeps. Things have been a little crazy here in the last month. What to say? It seems that everyone in the apartment is now jobless.......O.O; Crazy? I think so. I knew I was losing my job, but that was my choice. A few days later, Chris was fired for some bullshit reason, and Troy's termination kinda sneaked up on us, and was really unexpected. So, we don't really know what is going on now. There is really no way we can pay rent or anything for next month as it stands. Wheels are turning though, and we'll see where it leads. Maybe it was all meant to be. Maybe this is really a good thing disguised as crap?? I think it is. Then again it is spring, and that is when I like to change things....wether it's moving or jobs, I seem to need to do something different. I am optomistic that it will all work out. Things have been going great between Troy and I, and I am psyched about that. ............Not a lot else to say. I have this horrid cold at the moment. My sinuses are full of so much mucus, my head feels like it weighs 5,000 pounds. Other than that, the weather is great, and I am still alive. I hope everything is working out for y'all! I will update when something changes! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Wow!! Long time no see everyone!! I am staying with The General's mom until Friday when I will be moving into my own place. I am so super excited!! I don't know how it will all work out but I think everything will be ok. I am kinda sick at the moment with the flu...and so much stuff has been going on, I have no energy to tell it!!! I am ok though, and things are going to work out! WHEEEEEEEEEE! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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